why is it that every time something is finally going well, something terribly bad has to happen?
don't I deserve a little while of happiness?
I'd like to say it doesn't get to me
I'd like to say I don't care at all
but it's getting harder to lie
it's getting harder to pretend
It does awake things I've always known were there, insecurities that never did leave, hate that never did turn into love, the disapproval has been always there, I just never thought it'd be so bad, I just never thought it'd be this hard.
There's nothing I can do, or better, there's nothing I should do, but to take a distance, be considerate and try to step aside, and as difficult as it might be, perhaps is for the best.
I am now convinced that history repeats itself, and as hard as he might have tried, he finally did, what someone else did before him, me managed to turn everything he hated and avoided, to reality and I'm afraid there's nothing I can do.
This seems one of those events that changes people forever, it leaves a scar that will never heal, one of those events that will determine everything else after them, and life won't be just like I imagined, it will be, perhaps, a nightmare that came true, a long hated nightmare that was never supposed to happen.
don't I deserve a little while of happiness?
I'd like to say it doesn't get to me
I'd like to say I don't care at all
but it's getting harder to lie
it's getting harder to pretend
It does awake things I've always known were there, insecurities that never did leave, hate that never did turn into love, the disapproval has been always there, I just never thought it'd be so bad, I just never thought it'd be this hard.
There's nothing I can do, or better, there's nothing I should do, but to take a distance, be considerate and try to step aside, and as difficult as it might be, perhaps is for the best.
I am now convinced that history repeats itself, and as hard as he might have tried, he finally did, what someone else did before him, me managed to turn everything he hated and avoided, to reality and I'm afraid there's nothing I can do.
This seems one of those events that changes people forever, it leaves a scar that will never heal, one of those events that will determine everything else after them, and life won't be just like I imagined, it will be, perhaps, a nightmare that came true, a long hated nightmare that was never supposed to happen.
